Hi all this is Erika writing. This is my first blog here, but hopefully many more will come...
In 2002, at the age of 22 I gave my heart, soul, and life to Jesus. He completely re-invented me, and I never want to go back to my old way of "living". When I first got saved my emotions ruled over me. It seemed that first year was an emotional roller coaster ride that never ended. It was amazing and incredibly difficult. God was literally ripping and tearing the sin that had entangled my life for 22 years out. I praise God for that re-invention.
Well, as daily life takes over and the emotional high wears off I find myself in a quandary. Anyone who knows me will say I am an emotional creature, I feel things deeply and in my past I have experienced God with my emotions. Now, I have also been learning alot about my emotions and how to control them, or how to let God control them. Now that I am a wife and working full-time I have grown into a schedule that I feel does not include that once intense passionate pursuit of God I once knew. I remember while I was attending Bible College in Ecuador we would wake up every single morning (excluding Sunday) and spend half an hour in quiet time, somehow seeking the face of God. It was such a beautiful time, especially now that I look over completely full journals, where every day was a living prayer, and praise to Jesus.
So over the past year, I feel that God is teaching me much more about faith, and how it goes so much deeper than what I "feel". This is very difficult for me to understand, because my emotions is what I use to gage almost everything. So my question is can I really be living a life for God and showing Jesus in everything I do and say, and not experience alot of emotion?
Is it really possible for others to see God in my life, and see Jesus shining through me, although I "feel" like I am not doing half of what I did in my early walk?
May be this is confusing for some of you, I know it is for me! I am definitely entering a new phase in my faith, and it is hard, because I have not been here before, and at times I have no clue what to do.
Josue and I read a chapter of a book called "God Chasers" yesterday morning and there was something the author said that really peaked my interest. He said that many believers are living on a past revelation and that the glory of the Lord has faded from their lives. That is why their faith grows stagnant and their love grows cold. They never seek to gain a new revelation for their lives. Wow! I realized that I had been living on the past revelations I know God has shown to me, but I had not been seeking for a new one. That morning we fell on our faces before God and repented of not seeking that fresh touch, and I believe He heard us. Faith is a hard concept to understand, I am not sure I will ever completely wrap my head around it, but I am sure of this. What I knew of God is still true, but there is so much more I need to learn, and I pray that I will never grow weary of seeking that fresh touch, and that new revelation.
There is an innate yearning inside each of us to discover and explore the unknown. My desire eversince I was a child was to travel to the horizon to see what's beyond the next mountain. Needless to say, in my circumstance it was very difficult to achieve. Growing up in one of the world's poorest nation, dreams and goals are always beyond reach; yet it is dreams and goals that can help one overcome the rather unfortunate circumstances that he or she was born into. What a predicament that millions of my brothers and sisters find themselves in? I wish beyond everything I could say that life is fair and that everyone should have the opportunities that I have had. I was introduced to this world in 1980 in a village across the mountains of an island that's used to be called the "Pearl of the Antilles." To this day, my village still does not have electricity, running water, etc... I can only imagine where I would be, if I was not given an opportunity at the young age of six to leave home and face the unknown. I can say that it is in those early days that my journey to the horizon began. 
From my first time getting into an automobile, to travel to a part of the country that had running water, electricity, people of different colors and different races, houses that were soo huge that I could got lost in. Little did I know that would be the start of an adventure that would lead me to the ends of the earth.
